A former Methodist worship and teaching pastor who served in ministry for 20 years before becoming an atheist has been appointed as the American Atheists’ public relations director. In an interview with The Christian Post, she revealed that despite initially being ostracized by friends, she is now happy and at peace with her decision.

“No it was very, very gradual. Actually there’s not really one single moment where I can look back and say ah, that was the moment. It was kind of a slow progression,” Teresa MacBain shared about her loss of faith with CP in a phone interview on Tuesday.

Unable to point to one specific incident that made her change her mind about God and the Bible, MacBain chronicled the train of thought that led her from the Christian faith to her secularist reasoning today.