I am so grateful that I came across your philosophy at this point in my life.
As a middle schooler I fell into Mormonism wholeheartedly. I begged my parents to let me become baptized; the Holy Spirit reduced me to tears countless times. I had brainwashed myself, entering a state of religious euphoria because I believed I had found THE ANSWER. It was only after the euphoria dissipated that I became painfully aware of how illogical the Joseph Smith and golden plates story was. I had been misled by a very unreliable measurement of truth: my emotions. I had been so enthralled with the idea of becoming part of a warm religious community and having specific guidelines by which to live my life, that I convinced myself to believe what they did.
I was heartbroken. I refused to let myself get swept up in any nonsense. I would pay more attention to facts, not emotions. I would watch out for manipulation in any church I went to. I was smarter than that. Problem was, I saw manipulation and a lack of logic in Christianity in general. The Bible was starting to sound like Greek mythology.
Despite all of my skepticism, I was afraid to admit that I didn’t believe in God–afraid to even consider the fact that I didn’t believe in God. For what if there WAS a God, and He was angry at me for considering atheism? Not to mention that “atheism” is taboo. Atheists, I was told, were jaded, lost, lonely misanthropes that lacked morals. I didn’t want to be associated with them. You changed this. I was so comforted that there was someone out there, who I respected, who had doubted what I had, and come to the same conclusions I had. It wasn’t just me. Christianity doesn’t make a whole lot of sense.
I’m not afraid anymore…
It may sound overly dramatic, but I feel as though I have broken my chains and am free. The universe is so much more amazing to me now that I believe it came about of its own accord. And I want to investigate, and question, and learn as much as I can.
Thank you, thank you, thank you.
I’m 16 and glad that this fear of mine won’t last a moment longer.