I am a ordained member of the clergy who has lost his faith. I do not believe in God anymore after 20 plus years in the ministry, yet I am in full-time ministry because I need the money and my whole life in wrapped up in the church. I remember reading in the article “Atheist in the Pulpit” that Richard Dawkins hoped to one day be able to offer “clergy-retraining scholarships” to retrain pastors who wanted out of ministry. Is there any such thing available and if so, how does one apply?
Even if not, I would like to open up dialog with Mr. Dawkins and others, to share my story as much as I can without jeopardizing my current position. I know there are no doubt many many others in my situation and I am interested in doing what I can to make a difference, even while still inside the church.
I am writing in pseudonym. If the writers of the book of Genesis can use Adam as the name of the first man, I can use it as well!