I am a recovering Baptist minister. I grew up with everyone in my family and those around me telling me that I should be a minister. I knew a lot about the Bible as a child and was always well behaved and a great leader in my youth group. It just seemed like the logical choice.
However, I never really felt it. I couldn't figure out why. In my mind, I knew…or at least I thought I knew, that God existed but it was never real to me. But I didn't want to disappoint anyone.
I went on to college, getting a double major in chemistry and biology and then seminary (odd combination, right?) and started my work as a minister. I enjoyed the relationships but always felt awkward praying and often found parts of the Bible to be silly and hated trying to speak on them as though they were factually accurate.
I read an article about Sam Harris' book The End of Faith and read it cover to cover. It made me sick inside because I agreed with everything he was saying. I immediately went and found The God Delusion and read it cover to cover as well. It all made sense. The compelling science, the rational discourse, it was what I had been thinking all along. I did some real soul searching and came to the conclusion that it couldn't be real, God couldn't be real.
So I am no longer a minister, this has happened very recently and now I'm at an interesting point in life. I now have a masters degree in something I want nothing to do with. But I feel free. I feel like, quite possibly for the first time in my life, I can do whatever I want to do.
I just want to say thank you for opening up my eyes and giving me that opportunity.