Hi, my name is Zack. I was raised as a reformed Jew, and currently have not told my family of my “deconversion”.
I am 13-a rather young age to depart from beliefs held by generations. However, I am sure that I have made the right choice. I was always the kind of person who would sleep during services, read Darwin under the desk at Hebrew school, and wonder how stories of genocide lived on in children’s rhymes. Even so, it was not until I read the God Delusion by Richard Dawkins that I was a full-blown atheist. Thank you, Richard. You opened my eyes to the light of reason.
Even now, I still cannot admit fully to the childish side of myself that there is no one watching over us, protecting us, listening to our prayers and needs. I am sure this will grow out in age and education, though. A larger problem is my family. Most of them, especially my grandparents (who paid for many a term of Temple membership), would be heartbroken to hear that I have departed from their beliefs. Especially troubling is my 10-year old sister, who seems to be a diehard theist from the get-go. At least I’ll have someone to debate with :).
To tell the truth, I am a little scared of being openly atheist (search-kill the atheists- on google). However, if anyone could suggest an anonymous online talk group that can help me “break it easy” to my family, and perhaps have intelligent discussion on religion and theology, that would be amazing.
In conclusion, thank you Richard Dawkins, Darwin, Chris Hitchens, my friend Grant (cool atheist dude), for opening my eyes. I hope that the world goes the right way at this juncture in history.